Transports to peace

I was caught in the middle of the recession in 2008. After graduating in August i was unable to land a full time position in USA. I was depressed since i still had education loans to be paid and time was running out. Despite applying to over 500 companies there was absolutely no positive response. My day started with sending resume' and cover letters and ended with reject letters. Seeing the hundreds of reject letters come my way was a big blow. I had always topped in exams, had never waited for anything for too long and had had my way most of the time in my career so far. This unexpected response shattered me as an individual and as a professional and i started doubting my abilities and capabilities. Given the intense loneliness most people experience in USA, the absolute silence in the residential colony i stayed in and pressures due to US visa rules that gave me a tough time line of 3 months to land a job from the date of graduation i was totally at a loss. Unmindful of how i felt, i kept applying for jobs day and night. At times i felt extremely disheartened and my mind would go spinning into sadness and dejection. The loan amount to be repaid would keep flashing across my eyes. Atleast in India, life would be easier but in the United States it was so much more harder. I lost sleep, my schedule became erratic and i stopped communicating with friends since everyone seemed to have jobs and i had none and i felt like a loser. My mind was raging like an inferno- anger, sadness, frustration alternated every day for 6 months. God was not spared in my efforts. Everyday i wrote to god, prayed to him incessantly so much so that often prayer occupied half my day while the other half went into applications. I prayed to Swamiji a lot. When my mind became unmanageable i appealed to Swamiji to bring peace to me. I prayed a lot asking for peace. Nothing happened initially but as i continued to pray, the third time, a drastic transformation took place. My mind that had been like an angry elephant suddenly was thrown into peace following the appeal to Swamiji. For one whole week, my mind lost all anger and became calm like a lake. I was amazed. The calmness pervaded my whole being and i experienced infinite peace. With a peaceful mind i was able to achieve more and somehow Swamiji took away all my worries as well. I was drowned in peace. What a relief it was! Thank you, Swamiji.